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PRESS NOTICES

"'TWIXT EARTH AND STARS"

"Miss Radclyffe-Hall is a poet. She has a gift of expression always felicitous, not infrequently spontaneous, and her rhythms are really musical. Moreover, the level of her book is uniformly high. In writing of nature her intuition and sympathy are remarkable. Nearly every poem contains something which clings to your memory and sets you thinking.... The main note is vigorous, joyous youth, thankful for the right to exist in such a lovely world.

"If Miss Radclyffe-Hall acquires a higher finish she may confidently look forward to taking her place among the poetesses of this country. It is not often one can so honestly recommend the public to buy a volume of poetry."—The Queen, 4th July, 1906.

"The author of ''Twixt Earth and Stars' has a real talent for versification, and the subjects chosen are all poetical, added to which she has real feeling and the power to express it. I am so charmed with this little book of poems that I cannot help recommending it to you, that you also may enjoy it."—The Lady, 5th July, 1906.

"A little book of short poems, most of which are very pleasant, being marked by sincerity and sweetness."—Evening Standard, 21st July, 1906.

"''Twixt Earth and Stars' is a dainty little volume of verse, some of which is of considerable merit."—Publisher and Bookseller, 28th July, 1906.

A SHEAF OF VERSES

POEMS

MARGUERITE RADCLYFFE-HALL

AUTHOR OF "'TWIXT EARTH AND STARS"

JOHN AND EDWARD BUMPUS LTD.
350 OXFORD STREET, LONDON, W.

MCMVIII

DEDICATED TO SAD DAYS AND GLAD DAYS

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	PAGE
Kinship	1
The Moon's Message	2
On a Battle Field	4
To ——	6
The All-Mother's Awakening	7
A Summer Thought	10
Moth to the Flame	11
A Twilight Fancy	12
The Two Angels	13
In the Hardt Wald	15
The Quest of the White Heather	18
One Night	21
A Welcome	22
White Butterflies	23
Thoughts	26
The Cloud and the Mountain	27
An August Night	29
Spring Hopes	30
My Choice	31
In Couples	32
House Hunting	33[x]
Re-incarnation	35
Ode to Sappho	36
Incompatible	39
Confidence	41
Found Wanting	43
In Darkness	44
Brother Filippo	45
An Autumn Ride	52
Before Dawn	56
My Castle	57
Malvern	58
To my little Cousin	60
Trepidation	61
At Meissen	62
Winter on the Zuyder Zee	64
Ardour	67
A Complaint	68
The Laying of Ghosts	69
To a Baby	72
O Lady Mine	73
Butterfly	74
To ——	75
A Windy June	76
Hollyhocks	78
The Truth	79
A Mountain Path	80
A Pearl Necklace	81
To Roses	82[xi]
On the Sea-shore	83
My Valley	84
To ——	85
Finis	86
Old Verses	91
On the Road to Tennaley Town	92
A little Dirge	93
The Poet	94
A Night in Italy	95
Hands and Lips	96
We Two	97
To ——	98
North and South	99
On the Hill Top	101
The Moon	102
Speculation	103
The Meeting	104
To Some One!	105
Out at Sea	106
Faith	107
The Scar	108
Comparison	109
An Interlude	110

[1]

A SHEAF OF VERSES

KINSHIP

Sunlight and shade,

Moorland and glade,

Evening and day,

Winter and May,

Troubadour breeze,

Amorous trees,

Pondering Hills,

Gold daffodils

Born of the Spring,

Thrushes that sing

Passionate notes

From downy throats,

Be unto me

Each one of ye

Sister or brother;

And Earth be my mother!

[2]

THE MOON'S MESSAGE

The Moon looked in at the window,

And smiled as I wrote to you,

She lay like a frail white maiden,

In shadowy folds of blue.

Her bosom was bare and tender,

And slight, for she still was young,

And down from her dainty shoulders

A mantle of starlight hung.

She wooed with a wanton ardour

The winds till they lulled to sighs,

And night was transformed with beauty,

For love of her limpid eyes.

The soul of the cloudy darkness

Awakened beneath her beams,

The sky swooned away with longing,

The Earth stirred in tender dreams.

[3]

Alas! for the moon was cruel,

Far colder than snow was she,

Her heart was a burnt-out Planet,

Her light but a fallacy:

And she looked at my open letter,

And called from her couch on high,

"Pray give my love to my Sister

Who is even more cold than I."

[4]

ON A BATTLE FIELD

Once o'er this hill whereon we stand,

Just you and I, hand clasp'd in hand

Amid the silence, and the space,

A mighty battle rent the air,

With dying curse and choking prayer;

'Mid shot and shell death stalked apace.

Is it conceivable to you—

So much at peace—because we two

Are close together, or to me?

The silent beauty of the noon

Seems like a Heaven-granted boon,

Aglow with tender ecstasy.

A little mist of hazy blue

Is slowly hiding from our view

The city's domes and slender spires,

As thro' a bridal veil the sun

Subdued and shy lights one by one

The virgin clouds with blushing fires.

[5]

The wind has fallen; very low

We hear his wings brush past, and know

He creeps away to dream and rest;

How sweet to be alone, to feel

You breathe one longing sigh, and steal

A little closer to my breast.

Is anything worth while but this?

We may not perish for a kiss,

Yet thus it were not hard to die!

War strews the earth with countless dead,

And after all is done and said,

The end is love, and you and I!

[6]

TO ——

The world that thro' its vale of tears

Looks out upon Eternity

Has yet one smile for us, and we

Still youthful in the count of years,

May add our smiles, and kiss the lips

Of life, for whosoever sips

The wine within that ruddy bowl

Has quaffed defiance to the spheres.

Beloved, see, I drink thereto!

And pass the goblet on to you.

[7]

THE ALL-MOTHER'S AWAKENING

To-day the still, deep mind of the Earth

Has steeped in longing her wistful eyes,

A sense of wonder and glad surprise

Thrills thro' her heart with a thought of birth.

The grave All-Mother looks up and smiles,

Her breath comes balmy from sunlit mouth,

Her bosom bare to the ardent south

Is fanned by perfume from fruitful miles.

All winter long has the dear Earth slept

In drifts of snow, 'neath the bane of frost,

Her children sought for the Mother lost,

Yet found her not, and in anguish wept.

All winter long have my senses cried

For warmth of sun, and the blue of sky,

The hard north answered to mock my sigh,

And all the glory of life denied.

[8]

The cold mists drifting on land and sea,

Like ghosts of passions burnt out and chill,

Smote heart and soul with the fear of ill,

That cast its awfulness over me.

The dank gray sails, and the dank gray shore,

They melted each in the other's face,

With clammy kiss, in a wan embrace

That left them colder than e'en before.

And thro' the boughs of the moss-grown trees

The sap flowed sluggish, or not at all,

While here and there would a dead leaf fall,

Like thought of harrowing memories.

Then from the heart of the Universe

There rose a wail of unending woe,

An anguished prayer from the deeps below:

"Oh! Mother, lift from our souls the curse!"

"Oh! Mother, quicken thy sacred womb,

With fire that throbs in the veins of Spring,

Behold the numbness of everything,

And only thou can avert the doom."

"Oh! Mother, hear us!" But silent still

The Earth slept on, as it were in death.

Her ice-bound bosom stirred not with breath,

[9]

So fast she lay 'neath the winter's will.

I joined my prayer to the wind and trees,

I joined my cry to the striving soil,

I said, "Oh! Mother, our endless toil

Has made us sicken with miseries.

"Rise up! and help us again to live,

Rise up! uncover thy fruitful breast,

We faint in winter's unrestful rest,

We burn with longings to love and give."

And as I spoke came a voice more strong

Than all creation's, o'er land and sea

It called our Mother to ecstasy,

And lo! she stirred, who had slept so long.

She stirred, she opened her drowsy eyes,

And bending down from the dome above,

Beheld the form of embodied Love,

As Spring stepped Earthward from Paradise.

[10]

A SUMMER THOUGHT

I often think that all those vast desires

For purer joys, that thrill the human heart,

Vague yearnings such as solitude inspires,

That nameless something silence can impart,

Could after all be quenched by simple things,

Whose spirits dwell within the wide-eyed flowers,

Or haunt deep glades, where scent of primrose clings

About the garments of the passing hours.

[11]

MOTH TO THE FLAME

Moth to the flame!

Fool that you be,

Life's but a game,

Love is the same,

Better go free!

Moth to the fire!

Madness your fate;

Burnt of desire,

If you expire,

Joy comes too late.

Moth to the kiss

Bringing you death!

"Gladly for this

Agonized bliss,

With my last breath

Will I adore

As ne'er before!"

Foolish Moth saith.

[12]

A TWILIGHT FANCY

Dear, give me the tips of your fingers

To hold in this scented gloom,

'Mid the sighs of the dying roses,

That steal through the breeze-swept room;

I would have you but lightly touch me,

A phantom might stir the dress,

In its passing, of some lost lover

With just such a faint caress;

Or a butterfly wan with summer

Brush thus with his down-flecked wings

The bells of the altar lilies

He touches, and lightly rings.

So give me the tips of your fingers,

Not your hand, lest I break the spell

Of the moment with too much passion,

And lose what I love so well.

[13]

THE TWO ANGELS

Once Youth and Innocence, side by side,

With flaming swords at a garden gate

Stood forth in silence, to watch and wait,

Lest lust and evil their might defied.

Love's rarest fruits in that garden grew,

And lo! a Pilgrim of pain and sin

Grown tired, would gladly have entered in,

And washed his soul in the gleaming dew.

He looked at Youth, and the Angel said:

"Behold me young, and behold me weak;

If you but crush me, the joy you seek

Shall quench desire on a rose-strewn bed,

"Yet oh! I pray you another hour,

For should you enter this Holy place,

My soul is given again to space,

And I must die as a blighted flower."

[14]

Then all the sorrow and all the shame,

That life had taught him to understand,

Rose up, and fettered the Pilgrim's hand,

And murmur'd: "Youth is a sacred name."

He looked at Innocence, nude and white,

And all unconscious she met his gaze;

Her eyes were soft as an evening haze,

Her red lips fashioned to give delight.

She sighed, "I know not the boon you ask,

But Nature sent me to guard the way

That leads to realms of Eternal day;

I may not shrink from the Mother's task.

"Yet these fair limbs that are pure as snow,

Should you but sully by thought or deed

Must droop and fade as a broken reed,

That every wind of the earth may blow."

Then all the goodness that he had missed,

Each dream of sweetness that passed him by,

Rose up, and cried: "Thou shalt still deny

Thyself"—and Innocence stood unkissed.

[15]

IN THE HARDT WALD

A road disused these many years,

O'er which the grass has grown

Between two rows of silent pines,

That stretch in straight, unbroken lines

Away to plains unknown.

Long ruts that passing wagons made

In days whose records die

Form trenches for the frailer flowers,

That timid of more open bowers

Secure in hiding lie.

And in those deep impressions there,

Where patient beasts have trod,

With stems in dainty green array,

And faces turned to meet the day,

Grow sprays of golden-rod,

'Mid sunbeams slanting thro' the wood

The ardent Afternoon

Steals like a lover fond, and dumb,

Upon his mistress Earth, o'ercome

With many a tender boon;

[16]

And that she sooner shall respond

To his awakening fires,

He summons from each fairy glade

Wee winged things, to serenade

This nymph of his desires.

So full of mystic power and life

Is this forgotten place

That I may scarcely dare intrude

My presence and my lighter mood,

Lest stepping I deface

Some masterpiece of moss or bloom,

That Dryad hands have wrought,

Perchance my very humanness

May make this potent charm the less,

That solitude has taught.

I fear to tread upon a branch,

For if beneath my feet

It breaks 'twould thus affright the bird

Whose tender music I have heard

In yonder green retreat;

[17]

And who am I that I should dare

Gainsay the Noon's behest;

Or penetrate this peaceful sphere,

And bring an agony of fear

To some dumb creature's breast?

Within this forest night and day

An endless hymn of praise

From out the heart of Nature wells,

That once again perfection dwells

In her profanèd ways,

That living green conceals the scars

Made by relentless man,

While in the deepest sylvan glades

Sound faint and far thro' emerald shades

The crystal pipes of Pan.

[18]

THE QUEST OF THE WHITE HEATHER
Schwartz Wald

I sought at dawn for the sweet white heather,

In hiding among the blue,

The earth was warm with the summer weather,

The flowers still damp with dew.

I moved a stone with my foot in walking,

A lizard ran out in fear,

Two tiny streams to each other talking

Complained that I came so near.

And all alone on the side of the mountain

I spoke to the new-born Day,

Oh! help me to gather some rare white heather

Sweet Morning, show me the way!

A big stag beetle crawled close in wonder,

A grasshopper chirped of rain,

A bee just pushing some flowers asunder

Buzzed loud in his vast disdain.

[19]

The pines swayed gently, as though with laughter,

They knew what I came to seek!

A thistledown that the breeze ran after

Brushed lightly against my cheek.

And all alone on the side of the mountain

I spoke to the new born Day,

Oh! help me to gather some rare white heather,

Sweet Morning, show me the way!

A trout jumped high with a rainbow shudder,

To see how the mortals look,

Then swayed his tail like a silver rudder,

And swam away in the brook.

I think I heard all the Pixies saying

"No heather that's white you'll find!"

I know I saw little Gnome-folk playing

Where shadowy boughs reclined—

And all alone on the side of the mountain

I spoke to the new born Day,

O help me to gather some rare white heather,

Sweet Morning, show me the way!

[20]

Alas! alas! for the fairy flower,

My feet grew weary in vain,

I sought for luck thro' each sunlit bower,

To find it truant again.

Then while I paused on the side of the mountain

The stillness was cleft apart,

And Morning cried "He who seeks white heather

Must find it deep in his heart!"

[21]

ONE NIGHT

I stood beside you in the dark,

And felt the magic of the night

Steal o'er my senses, 'til they swooned,

And mists of passion dimmed my sight.

The stillness made me dumb, those words

I dared not utter choked my breath,

Each crushing each, as mad with life

They rose, to die a silent death.

My lips grew dry beneath the fire

Of kisses that they feign would give,

And every pulse, with answering beat,

Throbbed in its eagerness to live.

[22]

A WELCOME

Dear Ghost, across a wind-swept sphere

You wander back again to me,

And I am not afraid, for see

I bid you rest beside me here!

I press your icy lips to mine,

Since you and I are almost one

Can I condemn what you have done

To render fruitless the divine?

Some day perchance our weary task

May finish, and we two will stand

Before the Maker, hand in hand,

There will be much that we shall ask!

[23]

WHITE BUTTERFLIES
Schwartz Wald

The heat of the mid-day has smitten the forest-land dumb!

The mountains are closing their eyes in a languorous dream,

The boulders stand stark, where the torrents once hastened to come,

For Earth in her passion is wholly consuming their stream.

The ardour and terror of living is rife in the air,

The air that is breathless, and stranger to motion or sound,

A rapture so potent it seems near akin to despair

Is drawing the life-blood in mist, from the sun-ravished ground.

And out thro' this region grown tense with creation's desire,

Inconsequent, fragile as thistledown wafted by breeze,

Two butterflies flutter, like snow-flakes that fall upon fire,

[24]

Far into the flame-land, that stretches away from the trees.

White butterflies, innocent-looking and soft as a sigh,

In quest of what blossoms, what mystical pleasures, who knows?

Close one to the other they hover now low and now high,

Like thoughts that are breathed from the heart of an opening rose.

Vague spirits that drift o'er the infinite tide of the earth,

As jewels of foam, on the passion-torn breast of the sea,

They know not the hour of their ending, the cause of their birth,

A moment of time or a year, they rejoice but to be!

Around them the problem of life, with its pain and its joy,

Impregnates the noon with a sense of some marvellous power,

Above them, grown potent with strength to create or destroy,

[25]

The shafts of the sun, that have smitten and withered the flower.

And still with frail bodies unmoved by the vastness of things

These fairy white butterflies flutter like spirits of light,

They pause for an instant, then spreading their tremulous wings,

Fly into the infinite, fading away from my sight.

[26]

THOUGHTS

A drop of dew that on a rose-bud clings,

A ray of sunshine in a world of Springs,

A bird, who singing from some hidden tree,

Is bathed in streams of endless melody,

An open flower you trod on as you passed,

The purple shadow that your passing cast,

A breath of wind that lingered on your brow,

An emerald leaf fresh shaken from the bough,

A smile of hope on lips that you delight,

A grateful word from one whom you requite

For some small service, or a little sigh

That fans your senses as it flutters by,

These things to you how much they mean!

While I?...

[27]

THE CLOUD AND THE MOUNTAIN

A little white Cloud loved the Mountain,

She hung in the sky all day,

And gazed with rather a timid smile

To where, beneath her full many a mile,

The earth and the loved one lay.

The Mountain was silent and lonely,

And grim in the light of dawn,

And ever and aye he cast his eyes

In longing hope to the distant skies

Where little white clouds are born.

Till a breeze in the evening passing

Took pity upon her vow,

And very tenderly lifted down

The virgin Cloud, till her fleecy crown

Was set on the Mountain's brow.

And they loved with a silent ardour

So great that she soon was slain,

And drop by drop from her tender breast

The life-blood flowed o'er his rock-bound crest,

[28]

And fell to the earth in rain.

But she left him to keep for ever,

As solace in endless woe

Her soul, and now through the changing years,

Come shine, come shade, or come smiles, or tears,

It lies on his breast as snow.

[29]

AN AUGUST NIGHT

Hot with the ardour of the sun,

Whose burning lips had slain the noon,

The golden pallor of the moon

Was but an added fire, o'ercome

With memories she swooned away,

While I, grown weary with the day

Sought on my balcony to find

Some solace for my groping mind,

But lo! the awful night was fraught

With anguish, from the noontide caught;

The dark was breathless, and the skies

Filled with a thousand prying eyes

But scoffed to see my soul's despair,

And flung me back my tortured prayer.

[30]

SPRING HOPES
SONG

Dear, perchance 'neath the frost and snow

One little golden flower is sleeping,

You shall find it, for you will know

Whither at dawn the sun goes peeping.

Come then sweetheart, we two will go

Hand in hand, and a truce to weeping,

If, in spite of the winter's woe,

Safe in Nature's maternal keeping

Under the frost rime and under the snow,

One little primrose is daintily sleeping.

[31]

MY CHOICE

I have chosen a hill very solemn and tall,

To shelter me.

I have chosen a home very humble and small,

Where I would be.

I have chosen a wind very fragrant and gay,

To kiss my mouth.

I have chosen a view, stretching ever away,

When I look south.

I have chosen a glow that the sunlight shall bring

When morning calls.

I have chosen a choir of the thrushes to sing

When twilight falls.

I have chosen a shrine where my spirit may pray,

Blessing its birth.

I have chosen a breast where my head I can lay,

Sweet Mother Earth!

[32]

IN COUPLES

There are two happy birds in the tree,

There are two happy stars in the sky,

There are two happy waves in the sea,

There are two happy clouds drifting by,

There are two happy mortals, since we

Are together, just you dear, and I.

[33]

HOUSE HUNTING

Where shall we make us a cosy home,

Up in a high pine tree?

Suppose the squirrel deserts his nest,

And we could only grow small and rest

Under the twigs, laid so daintily,

Up in the high pine tree!

Where shall we build us a lovely house,

Under the Ocean deep?

Suppose the fishes would swim away,

And leave a palace of coral gay,

With seaweed gardens where moonbeams sleep,

Under the Ocean deep!

Where shall we find an enchanted spot,

Up in the fields of sky?

Suppose the rainbow bends slowly down,

And we walk over to Cloudy Town,

Golden with beams from the morning's eye,

Up in the fields of sky!

[34]

How shall we live out our days, we two,

Safely where no harm parts?

Suppose we fetter our lives with love,

More fair than ocean, or skies above,

And learn to dwell in each other's hearts,

Safely where no harm parts.

[35]

RE-INCARNATION

Meeting you I felt a thrill,

Strangely sad, and strangely sweet!

Some compelling force of will,

Sprung from sympathies complete,

Sympathies, that rose again

After death's ennobling pain.

[36]

ODE TO SAPPHO

If not from Phaon I must hope for ease,

Ah! let me seek it from the raging seas:

To raging seas unpitied I'll remove;

And either cease to live or cease to love.

Ovid's Heroic Epistle, XV.

Immortal Lesbian! canst thou still behold

From some far sphere wherein thy soul doth sing

This earth, that once was thine, while glimmered gold

The joyous beams of youth's forgotten spring?

Can thine unfathomed eyes embrace this sea,

Whose ebb and flow once echoed in thy brain?

Whose tides bear record of thine ecstasy

And thy despair, that in its arms hath lain?

Those love-burnt lips! Can death have quenched their fire?

Whose words oft stir our senses to unrest?

Whose eager ardour caught and held desire,

A searing flame against thy living breast?

[37]

Passion-wan Lesbian, in that awful place

Where spirits wander lost without a name

Thou still art Sappho, and thine ardent face

Lights up the gloom with love's enduring flame.

Oh! Goddess, woman, lover, all divine

And yet divinely mortal, where thou art

Comes not as cadence from some song of thine

Each throbbing beat that stirs the human heart?

Canst thou forget us who are still thy friends,

Thy lovers, o'er the cloudy gulf of years?

Who live, and love, and dying make amends

For life's short pleasures thro' death's endless fears?

Once thou didst seek the solace of thy kind,

The madness of a kiss was more to thee

Than Heaven or Hell, the greatness of thy mind

Could not conceive more potent ecstasy!

Life was thy slave, and gave thee of her store

Rich gifts and many, yet with all the pain

Of hopeless longing made thy spirit sore,

E'en thou didst yearn, and couldest not attain.

[38]

Oh! Sappho, sister, by that agony

Of soul and body hast thou gained a place

Within each age that shines majestic'ly

Across the world from out the dusk of space.

Not thy deep pleasures, nor thy swiftest joys,

Have made thee thus, immortal and yet dear

To mortal hearts, but that which naught destroys,

The sacred image of thy falling tear.

Beloved Lesbian! we would dare to claim

By that same tear fond union with thy lot;

Yet 'tis enough, if when we breathe thy name

Thy soul but listens, and forgets us not.

[39]

INCOMPATIBLE

To-day I hate that bitter creed,

Whereby the groaning soul is taught

That God Almighty finds the need

Of pain, ere true salvation's wrought!

Dear God, who did create the trees,

The scented flowers, the misty view,

The uplands' breezy ecstasies,

The Ocean's iridescent blue,

The arches of the endless sky,

The magic of a day in Spring,

The down upon a butterfly,

The anthem that the skylarks sing.

All perfect growing harmonies,

Each tuneful sound and beauteous sight,

That lifts us from our miseries

To raptures of supreme delight,

[40]

Can I believe that Thou hast willed

Each bitter moment I have spent?

Whereby in anguish were fulfilled

Thy hard decrees of punishment?

To-day is June! Since early dawn

My heart has felt the sun's caress,

I bless the hour that I was born

To witness so much loveliness.

And I would have a God of love,

A tender God, who looks and smiles

From some not distant throne above

Upon His fair created miles.

I know not who has placed the thorns

That pierce, on our human brow,

But I would pray on these sweet morns.

Dear God, Oh! Let it not be Thou.

[41]

CONFIDENCE

The faintness of my heart

When strife and evil rose,

The worse and lesser part

Which it for ever chose,

God knows.

The passions that have bound

My soul with chains of earth,

The sorrows that have found

Their home with me since birth,

The dearth

Of all these nobler things

That make existence fair,

The stain of sin that clings

Until we cease to care

For prayer,

[42]

All this must I atone:

And though eternal woes

My banished soul alone,

Must bear without repose,

Yet I am not afraid

To know God knows.

[43]

FOUND WANTING

I turn'd to you, the sky was amber gold,

Blue haze and flaming bracken stretched away

In undulating mystery to the day,

Reclining that the evening might behold

And hide her softly 'neath his starlit wings.

A trembling breeze caressed the nearer things

About us, pausing now and then to play

Within the tender shadows of your hair,

Across the sky, like darts flung high in air

A flight of swallows struck against the glow

An instant, ere they melted quite away,

Like thoughts consumed by passion, and the lay

Of home birds grew emotional and low.

My very soul came forth and sought your eyes,

But in their depth no raptured awe took birth,

You stood indifferent to the throb of earth,

You gazed unseeing at the burning skies,

And all it meant you could not realize!

* * * * *

A little shiver crept along my heart—

For you and I were strangers, far apart.

[44]

IN DARKNESS

Oh! that the night were passed, and morn,

Made lovely by the joy of spring,

Would flood these sombre clouds with dawn,

Oh! that some hopeful bird would sing,

And in his tiny feathered throat

Contain the answer vast, remote,

My spirit seeks in endless spheres

Of thought, and prayer, yet never hears!

[45]

BROTHER FILIPPO

Ring on! Oh endless vesper bell!

What can you know of that deep Hell

Upon this Earth, where men may dwell.

Ring on! Your calling is in vain,

What holy rite can lull the pain

Of mortal Sin's Immortal stain.

* * * * *

It was the heavy hour of noon,

When Nature still as in a swoon

Reclines beneath the spell of June.

I left the Monastery gate,

And sought the forest shade, to wait

For even hour, and meditate.

Upon the beads hung from my side

A silver Christus crucified.

God mocked, and scourgèd, and denied!

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My missal in my hand I took,

And read within the Holy Book

How vain the joys a monk forsook.

I thought of Heaven, and all therein

I hoped by penitence to win;

My heart was free from mortal sin.

When lo! as of enchanted spheres

A languid music smote my ears,

With vast delight, and vaster fears.

It was as if all deadly wrong

Grown honied sweet in magic song

Caressed my senses, deep and long.

My eyes upon the missal bent

Sprang upward, and in ravishment

Beheld a gaze on me intent.

The figure of a tender maid,

Within the larches' trembling glade

Clothèd in sunlight and in shade—

Was bending o'er me, and her breast

Full worthy of a King's behest

She offered, that my head might rest.

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She was most pale, and frail, and white,

Like moonlit mist on Summer's night,

Like memory of wan delight.

And thro' the tendrils of her hair

There blew a breath of scented air,

Of all sweet things from everywhere.

A limpid magic were her eyes,

Two mountain lakes, where sunlight lies

Enamoured, and of passion dies.

From out her lips proceeded words

More soft than distant pipe of herds,

More tender than the song of birds.

I know not what the tongue she spake,

But all my senses leapt to ache

With longing, for her asking's sake.

As in a dream I rose and pressed

Her bending slimness to my breast:

With eager kiss my mouth caressed

The flaming redness of her own,

All else on earth had nothing grown,

Save that we two were there alone.

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Within my ears the rush of streams,

My vision shot with lurid gleams,

My spirit bathed in burning dreams!

A vital fragrance round her clung,

As if from earth's deep veins was wrung

The sap of springs for ever young.

It turned my blood to living fire,

The universe immense, entire,

Was bound in me, and my desire.

No mortal man was I, while still

I kissed and wreaked my ardent will

Upon that form of tender ill.

She cast her magic over me,

Her spell of Immortality,

That lost my soul Eternity.

The sunlight faded, and the day

As one affrighted fled away,

Suddenly tremulous and gray.

An icy wind sprang up, and blew

A shuddering breath along the dew,

It chilled my body thro' and thro'.

[49]

I sought the shelter of her hair,

But lo! my sinful breast was bare,

My arms outstretched to empty air.

I wept aloud, in anguish cried,

The echoes hastened to deride!

She came no longer to my side.

And in her stead, with agony

Of dumb regret, most bitterly

My soul came forth, and looked on me!

* * * * *

Within the forest's depth a bird

Began to twitter, and I heard

Trees stirring at its tender word.

I woke as from a searing dream,

Beside my feet a little stream

Grew rosy with a sunset beam.

The earth gave forth her fragrant store;

Obedient to Eternal law,

All things were even as before,

All things save I, who moaned, and stood

A stranger, in the tranquil wood.

My spirit shrank away, nor could

[50]

Refresh itself at Nature's breast,

Its lips were burnt, defiled, caressed

Of sin, unholy and unblessed!

I knew it then! fulfilled desires

Are in themselves Hell's deepest fires,

And man when highest he aspires

The more may fall beneath his lust.

And yet, ah! Heaven, the while I thrust

My sense in penitential dust

I knew that thro' my misery

A tremor stole persistently,

Of rapture at her memory.

Shall I confess with spirit bent

That hour of awful ravishment?

Dear God, but should I not repent?

'Twere better that we two should die

A thousand deaths, my soul and I,

Than live an everlasting lie!

Oh soul! What would you have me say,

To Him whose hand shall never stay

Its vengeance on this woeful day!

* * * * *

[51]

Ring on! oh endless vesper bell!

What can you know of that deep Hell

Upon this earth where men may dwell,

And God, does He know? Who can tell——

[52]

AN AUTUMN RIDE
Malvern

The world's a beautiful world to-day,

A flame of gold and a dusk of gray,

Where Autumn leaves toss their gaudy crests

O'er still deep lanes, where the twilight rests.

Just overhead as I ride along

A hopeful thrush charms his thought to song,

And all that's joyous within me springs

To meet the promise of which he sings.

Away to Heaven the melting view

Is soft with raptures of endless blue;

The trees and meadows, the hills and plains,

Like music woven of countless strains

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Submerge, entwine, till the eye can see

No shade that is not a harmony.

As part of nature's most perfect whole

Each humble object conceives a soul,

No tiny flower in the distance lost,

But gives its colour, nor counts the cost;

No drop of dew, but its feeble ray

An atom cast in the pearly gray

Is shining there, unperceived, content,

A dim star set in earth's firmament.

My horse treads gently, and makes scarce sound,

His hoofs sink deep in the marshy ground,

Yet 'neath the touch of my curbing rein

I feel the youth in his veins complain,

He lifts his head, and his eager eyes

Gaze far away where the moorland lies,

He whinnies often, as though to say

I would be free on this perfect day!

[54]

He too is filled with a happiness

His dumb soul treasures but can't express,

And in that gladness of wind and sun

I know my beast and myself are one.

The way is lonely, no passer by

Disturbs the stillness, my horse and I

Possess the earth, and the rippling air

Divine elixir to banish care

Has brought new strength to my heart and mind,

And swept all sorrowful things behind.

Oh! Joy of living when youth is ours!

Oh! Earth my Mother, thy fragrant bowers

Could they be fairer if Angels trod

Beneath their trees at the will of God?

Could fabled Heaven e'er compensate

For one such day, when the year is late,

And all the Summer has come to dwell

In long warm moments of dim farewell?

[55]

When skies are pale with the tears that bless

The soil, in falling for happiness?

And winds are fragrant with scent that flows

From out the bosom of some lone rose?

And brooks are drowsy with dusty gleams,

And languid thoughts of their winter dreams?

The fields are vital, and nude, and gray

With future promise of fruitful clay?

Ah! no, my being could not believe,

My heart desire, nor my soul conceive,

A world more perfect, more dear, more true,

Than this fair Eden I'm riding through.

[56]

BEFORE DAWN
Malvern

I rose, ere yet the eager light

Had wrested from the grasp of night

The trembling spirit of the world.

The dusk of dawn with wistful eyes

Stole timidly across the skies,

A little cloud its edges curled

By passing winds sped soft and bright

Towards some Eastern Paradise.

No bird was yet awake to sing,

And silence kissing everything

Compelled my doubting soul to rest.

While yet I slept a fall of snow

Had whitened all the hills, and lo!

Above the nearest summit's crest,

A pendent star, as though to bring

God's blessing to His Earth below,

Shone like a thought benign, and kind,

Within the vast Eternal Mind.

[57]

MY CASTLE

Ah! why have I built my Castle

On the shifting golden sand?

On the shores of the hungry ocean

Instead of the safe highland?

I ask myself, and I answer

These sands are the sands of youth,

And these waves are the surfs of passion

Of life,—and of death forsooth!

And I know in my heart I'd rather

Exist for but one short day

Where the breakers of life wash highest,

Love, live, and be swept away.

[58]

MALVERN
July 23rd, 1906

Across the hills a tender shadow stole,

Like thought upon the face of one loved well,

And thro' the silence rang some distant bell,

A vague sweet music in its every toll.

Glimmers of sunlight flecked with purple shade

Upon the nearer summits, and the view

Grown dim, unearthly, 'neath the silver-blue

Of incense mist, that rose while nature prayed.

Two stars with tremulous emotion shone

Close side by side, in the encircling dome,

While drifting clouds, their edges soft as foam,

Made couches, which the moon might rest upon.

In thro' the open window came the scent

Of lime trees, in the garden underneath,

And from my cigarette a little wreath

Of memories, to meet their fragrance went.

[59]

It was an evening full of bygone things,

That mingled with emotions newly born

As night will ever clasp and kiss the dawn,

And leave those kisses on her ardent wings.

[60]

TO MY LITTLE COUSIN

You're just as pretty as the Day,

That young and pink above the hills

Trips daintily along her way,

With little breezy thrills.

I know that when she steps to earth

And sees the blueness of your eyes

She'll think that thence she took her birth,

And quite desert the skies!

[61]

TREPIDATION

This valley now in sun, and now in shade,

Is like the musings of your tender mind,

That pauses, bathed in joy, yet half afraid

To look before, and then to gaze behind.

Along the fragrant meadows slowly steal,

The pensive, drifting shadows, purple blue,

As o'er your heart, that shrinks the while to feel

The kiss of promise wonderful and new.

Look upward, Child, to where across the skies

Float happy clouds, aglow with morning light!

It is their shadow that before you lies

Upon the plain, and see, the clouds are white!

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AT MEISSEN
June 29th

Beneath the lime trees in the garden

High above the town,

The scent of whose suspended bloom

Entranced the air with warm perfume

I stood, and watched the river flowing,

Flowing smooth and brown.

The heat of all the summer sunshine

Centred in the skies,

Beneath its spell the city's towers

Grew dreamy, and the climbing flowers

Upon the balconies hung limply

Down, with closing eyes.

Some drowsy pigeons cooed together

On the nearer eaves,

Gnats danced, and one big foolish bee

Grown honey-drunk, bumped into me,

And ere he buzzed a lazy protest

Fell amid the leaves.

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A bell began to chime, I watched it

Swinging to and fro,

It made a solemn, pious sound,

While flippant swallows, darting round

To peer within the ancient belfrey

Soared now high, now low.

Time passed, and still I stayed to ponder

Through the afternoon,

Within my brain the golden haze

Wrought magic musings, and my gaze

Bent inward could behold no image

Save the form of June.

[64]

WINTER ON THE ZUYDER ZEE

The world has grown unreal to-day

Far out upon the Zuyder Zee!

We drift towards a mystic isle,

With scarce a breath of wind the while.

I hear the murmur of the tide,

I hear you breathing at my side,

Far out upon the Zuyder Zee.

The drearness of this inland sea!

Doomed thus to lie eternally

A fettered slave, grown old between

The dykes and marshes low and green,

Devoid of wind to stir the deep

Forgotten heart, so long asleep,

Oh! sorrow-ladened Zuyder Zee!

This awful hush engulfing things!

The noon-tide hangs with outspread wings

Above the ship, all motionless.

The penitential sails confess

Their sad inertness, damp and brown,

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From silent masts they ripple down

Towards the lifeless Zuyder Zee.

I almost think that you and I

Are floating on a haze of sky,

This is an unknown sphere of dreams,

Or else some region where the beams

Of daylight that have died unblessed

By some kind thought stray seeking rest,

Along the wastes of Zuyder Zee.

How strange to know that youth is ours!

That do we choose a world of flowers

And sunlight waiting to our hand

Is calling for some gladder land,

So easy to attain, yet lo!

We drift amid the mist and woe

Of winter on the Zuyder Zee.

Is there a subtle charm, when sad

Despairing nature makes the glad

Rejoicing spirit pause to think,

Of those dim depths to which may sink

The soul immortal? Where the mind

May grow as sodden as a wind

That dies upon the Zuyder Zee?

[66]

When all our loving and our will

To love for ever can't fulfil

Love's promises for age and death?

That like a hushed, unwholesome breath,

From off the marshes in the night

Steals forth, and all our past delight

Is colder than the Zuyder Zee?

The very thought that death is near

Perchance makes life seem doubly dear,

And love more urgent, since they two

May some day fade away, and you

Become a spectral memory,

Devoid of joy! and what of me

Oh! wise, world-weary Zuyder Zee?

Your endless depth of stark despair

But renders sunlit things more fair,

But makes the craving heart more strong

To grasp its pleasures, short or long,

While yet it is To-day, nor wait

Upon the will of doubtful fate,

Lest all emotion rendered numb

With long suppression should become

As you are, soulless Zuyder Zee!

[67]

ARDOUR

The thought of you has filled the night with wonder,

The dawn with praise,

Till all my senses thrill, like roses under

The morning's rays.

This love of ours has clad with new-found splendour

The hills and streams,

No forest glade but sighs of vast surrender,

In noontide dreams,

No star in heaven but grants a starry lover

Some tender boon,

No drifting cloud but longs to clasp and cover

His lady Moon.

No song of bird that is not song of mating,

In sylvan shade,

No sigh of wind that is not sigh of waiting

For bliss delayed.

The world itself a garden, where we wander

'Mid passion flowers,

Or pause to kiss a while, and fondly ponder

This joy of ours.

[68]

A COMPLAINT

Oh! why let all these wingèd days slip past us!

Will you not give me leave with those dear eyes,

To taste the sweets of our new paradise,

Beyond the outer dark where fate has cast us?

Must we for ever see the golden portal

Yet ne'er in glad abandon enter in?

Dear heart, if loving be so great a sin

Why have the gods decreed that man be mortal!

And why were you created in their likeness,

And why was I ordained to be your slave,

If in the twilight I must dig a grave,

Wherein to hide my heart from morning's brightness?

I tell you no! I will not leave untasted

One drop of sweetness life may hold for me:

Who scorns the present for eternity

I count that soul a sorry fool and wasted.

[69]

THE LAYING OF GHOSTS

Oh! weary ghosts, be still!

Sad spectres of long dead delights,

Wan spirits of the days and nights

Wherein of joy we drank our fill,

Lie deep beneath the sod of years.

To-day, to-day is mine!

Ye shall not blight its fragrant flowers,

Nor mar the passing of its hours,

That love has rendered all divine,

By woeful sighs and falling tears.

This is the sphere of life,

Wherein the long forgotten dead

Unwelcome should forbear to tread,

Within my veins hot blood runs rife,

But ye are colder than the grave!

What would ye have of me?

What price that penance did not pay,

What sacrifice of human clay?

Must my delight again set free

Be tethered to a witless slave?

[70]

While still upon this earth

Ye lived, and 'neath the joyous sun

Were warm and fair to look upon,

I blest the hour that gave ye birth,

And all my life laid at your feet.

The homage of my youth

I daily offered at your shrine,

Nor counted dear those gifts of mine

Which sapped the very strength of truth,

And left her poor and incomplete.

Nor did condemn the lust,

The soul destroying tyranny,

With which ye wrought my misery,

For in my heart was endless trust,

My spirit, dauntless, knew no fear.

Ye cry that ye were slain

Alas! it was not I who slew,

For all my hopes were buried too

Within that hour of death and pain,

And there remained not e'en a tear.

Nay, it was fate whose hand

Upraised to strike the awful blow

Decreed that ye must die, and go

Lamented to that shadow land

Of lost illusions perished soon!

Wherein the once-time-young

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Thro' countless ages seek, nor find,

Their vanished youth; with wandering mind

They sing the songs that once they sung,

But never may complete the tune.

Hence—hence! it is not yet

The hour wherein I too must pass,

The sand runs still within the glass,

And I would live and fain forget

Those bygone things that once ye were.

My lips have touched the rose,

And in its perfumed breast the dew

Has quenched my thirst; and lo! anew

The petals of my heart unclose,

My pulses throb, my senses stir.

Ye shall not steal this day,

For love has risen to my aid,

See, I am brave and undismayed!

Hence—hence! all things must pass away,

Back to your graves, obscure and deep!

I read aloud love's prayer,

Lift not again your haunting eyes

T'wards my new-found Paradise,

Lie still beside my lost despair,

And I command you—Sleep, Sleep, Sleep!

[72]

TO A BABY

Baby, with those solemn eyes

And that yellow hair

You are very, very wise,

Baby dear, I'll swear!

Give me, sweet, your chubby hand,

Whisper in my ear,

Since you seem to understand

Much that is not clear.

If you'll sit upon my knee,

Baby, for awhile,

All that's sad shall go from me,

Vanquish'd by a smile.

Very humbly will I learn

That which you can teach,

Life's great problems, each in turn

Solved in lisping speech.

You're so near to God, I feel

Poor and incomplete,

Just as though I ought to kneel,

Dear, and kiss your feet.

[73]

O LADY MINE
Song

"O Lady mine!" one day I cried,

"Pray make for me a posy,

That I may think when from your side

On your young mouth so rosy."

"Nay, gentle sir," the damsel said,

"The blossoms I deny you,

But take my willing lips instead,

If they will satisfy you!"

And then she kissed me where I stood,

And may the saints defend her—

Ne'er grew a flower in field or wood

One half so sweet and tender.

[74]

BUTTERFLY
Song

Butterfly, butterfly, where are you going?

"Over the roses into the sky."

Butterfly, butterfly, there is no knowing

When you'll come back again, so good-bye!

Butterfly, butterfly, summer is glowing,

But with the winter you too must die,

And your frail soul will be gently blowing

Upward to God on a rose's sigh.

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly!

[75]

TO ——

Our little love is newly born,

And shall I say good-bye?

For if I go, perchance ere dawn

Our little love will die!

I'd better stay and help it grow,

Since it is yours and mine,

Until this little love we know

Becomes a love divine.

[76]

A WINDY JUNE

The wind has shaken the lilac trees,

And scattered their purple bloom,

The wind has harassed the honey bees,

And robbed the flowers of their melodies,

The wind has gathered a host of clouds,

And smitten the earth with gloom.

The wind has blown out the golden lights

That hang from laburnum boughs,

Till nude and stripped of their past delights

The branches sigh through the stormy nights,

Like nuns who weep for their buried youth,

And murmur their mournful vows.

The wind has covered the hills with mist,

And hidden my favourite view,

The wind has torn at my garden beds

Where sad young roses have hung their heads,

And ah! the pity, that one slim stem

Is withered, and snapped right through.

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The wind has driven the birds afar,

The starling who reared her young

Above the door in the empty cot

Has flown away, and to-day there's not

A single twitter from hungry throats,

One minstrel, of all who sung.

The wind has stolen the warmth of June,

So how shall I pass my time?

I'll go indoors with my pen and book,

Beside the fire seek a cosy nook,

Then when I'm sure that he can't get in,

I'll write of his sins in rhyme!

[78]

HOLLYHOCKS

I saw a row of hollyhocks,

Demure and stately-tall,

They peep'd above a hedge of box,

Like maidens in brocaded frocks,

Who nodded one and all.

Some dress'd in pink, and some in white,

And some in purple blue,

They seemed abrim with gay delight,

To beckon shyly, and invite

The passer-by to view.

A mottled thrush cast bold black eyes

Upon this fair array,

He swell'd his little throat with sighs,

And tender notes of glad surprise

He sang in wistful lay.

But ne'er a stately head was turned

Towards his lonely tree,

Altho' with ardent words he burned,

Those dainty maids for whom he yearn'd

Had only smiles for me.

[79]

THE TRUTH

Oh! why is the world as it is, we ask,

With tears in our voice, and a sigh:

For nothing remains but an unfinished task,

While beauty is only hypocrisy's mask,

The end of it all—but to die.

Believe me, the world is a place full of joy,

And happiness stretches afar:

Alas! that the workings of man should destroy

The meaning of God, with the deeds they employ,

Oh! why are we all as we are?

[80]

A MOUNTAIN PATH

Alone upon the little path that led

Along the mountain-side towards the sun

I pondered o'er those passions that are dead,

I counted all your kisses one by one;

I spoke aloud the memory of each word

My heart had heard.

The scent of pines was heavy in the noon,

The air most happy with the song of streams,

Above the forest hung an early moon,

But I was gazing at my perished dreams,

And in that moment, while my soul was brave,

I dug their grave.

I folded each within a golden shroud,

Torn from the shining garments of my youth,

I did not weep, but very gently bowed

My aching spirit to the yoke of truth,

Then in the stillness of the fading day

I knelt to pray.

[81]

A PEARL NECKLACE

Go, cold white pearls, with your luring eyes,

The woman is waiting who longs to win

But the rainbow light that within you lies,

But the soft cool touch of your satin skin.

You are undefiled, and the price of sin

Has passed you by, what the heart denies

Can your whiteness, fettered and bound within

This necklet's space, ever realise?

You were snatched away from the deep, sad sea,

From the Mother's womb to the miser's pile;

You are bartered now for a phantasy,

For the hopeless hope in a woman's smile.

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TO ROSES

Roses, I hate you! since you still can bloom

Contentedly, where living love is not!

Can fling wan fragrance thro' this empty room,

Lift languid petals shimmering 'mid the gloom

Where love is not.

Roses, I hate you! that you do not die

Disconsolate, since love himself is dead.

These ghosts of burnt-out kisses drifting by,

Have they no power to hurt, to terrify,

Since love is dead?

And all these spectral words that haunt the air

With hollow sounds, grown awful, meaningless!

Can you still blossom passionately fair

Within this region, frigid with despair?

Where all is dead?

[83]

ON THE SEA-SHORE

Can nothing last?

No deep, intense emotion?

Have all things passed,

Can nothing last?

"Yes," sighs the wind,

"My passion for the Ocean

Must always last."

Is nothing True?

No words of protestation?

Love cries anew

"Is nothing True?"

"Yes," sobs the sea,

"My endless adoration

For yonder rock is true!"

Will nothing stand

Against the stress of weather?

Storms sweep the land,

Will nothing stand?

"Yes," says the rock,

"For God and I together,

We two will stand."

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MY VALLEY

Oh! my valley of shade and dreams!

Golden lights 'mid the distant blue,

Sun that pauses to kiss the dew,

Dew that trembles beneath its beams—

Fain were I but a bird above,

Floating, drifting on waves of air!

Ah! the life of the birds is fair,

For they wing to the spheres they love.

And if I could but fly and sing

Thro' the sweetness of this dear day,

I would bring all the hope of May,

To thy heart, that is wan for Spring.

[85]

TO ——

What a lonely little corpse our love is lying,

Very cold, and very still, and very drear!

Yet he throbbed with passion there was no denying,

And we thought his every word divinely dear!

Have we both grown old, that neither sheds a tear?

Have our hearts grown dry perchance with too much sighing?

We are standing by the bed,

At the foot and at the head,

Very solemnly!——What, dearest, are you crying?

[86]

FINIS

And so we closed the book, wherein we wrote

How many words of ecstasy and pain,

How oft repeated passion's deep refrain,

Like ebb and flow of tide, whose echo smote

Upon the hearing of our listening sense.

These pages will become the prey of years,

And time, who stretches forth an envious hand,

Shall make impossible to understand

Our burning words, that shine with unshed tears,

Ay, and we two may offer no defence!

The early mornings of awakening Spring

That smote our inspiration and desire

They still shall call, yet find no answering fire

Within the eyes of two at least, who bring

But wormwood, from the once so flowering path.

And limpid winter twilights when we gazed

Thro' frosted panes across the purpling snow,

Or turned our eyes towards the cheerful glow

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Of logs, whose kindly voices cracked and blazed

With invitation to the sheltered hearth—

They too shall come in season as before,

Yet we be absent, and within the room

Our vacant places cast a little gloom;

Then shall there fall a shadow on the floor,

As of one passing, who is yet unseen.

Perchance a pilgrim wind will pause to look

Within this volume where our tale unfolds,

And sorry at the text he there beholds,

Rustle with sighs the vellum of this book,

But leave no trace of where his breath has been.

Perchance a rose that through the casement bent,

Might cast her ardent eyes upon this lay,

And being touched, hide one soft leaf away

Between its pages, out of sentiment,

Then toss her wanton fragrance to the South.

Aye, many roses shall be born to grace

The garden, and the day will still rejoice,

Yet never at the echo of thy voice,

Nor shall a rose lift up its longing face

That we may cool our lips upon its mouth.

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And side by side with petals and with sighs,

With overweening tenderness and trust,

Shall rest the deadly layer of choking dust:

A weary skull, its sockets bare of eyes,

With grinning pathos from the title page

Will bear stark record of its master Death.

Sightless, yet seeing all Eternity,

With silent voice that rings more truthfully

Than any words we quickened with our breath

More full of wisdom than the speech of sage.

We two have loved, and have outlived the laws

Of love, e'en as these bones survive their flesh

With awful vigour gleaming strangely fresh

Amid the ruin of their natal cause,

A peg on which the gods may hang their wit!

We two have cast each other in the flame

Of searing passion, that we deemed was life.

Alas! those fiery billows flowing rife

Upon the sand, they have defaced love's name,

And there remains no smallest trace of it.

And yet we live, and walk upon the earth,

Beneath the pall of dusk the dome of dawn,

And all created creatures being born

Must do, and thus atone their hour of birth,

A living sacrifice to what! Who knows?

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Poor futile things, we make our little moan,

And clasp our puny hands in useless prayers

To that which neither wots of us nor cares,

And in our grief behold, we stand alone,

Till our complaining lips in anguish close.

My eyes shall still behold the stars above,

And you, how oft will count the hosts of night,

But never, never can we feel delight

In them together, swearing that our love

Is more enduring than eternal things!

Oh! blessed madness that possessed the heart,

Oh! sweet unreason that could cloud the mind,

Alas! that we have left you far behind,

And growing wise must lose the dearer part,

Of which not even the faintest perfume clings.

What would we not surrender overjoyed,

To hear once more the music that is still;

We sweep the strings, but lo! no answering thrill

From shattered harps, that eager hands destroyed,

From souls whom ravishment has smitten dumb.

Oh! for one hour snatched from the throbbing past,

Replete with its embodied ecstasy!

How little would we count Eternity,

How ready be, to know that hour, our last,

[90]

No matter what the penalty to come.

Oh! bitterness, that we ourselves did write

These pages with heart's blood, yet cannot feel

To-day one little tremor o'er us steal

Save of regret for so much past delight!

The cup is spilt of which we two partook.

For this last time, oh! once beloved, stay

Close here beside me, while my drying pen

Has still the strength to write our last Amen.

'Tis written ... there is nothing left to say,

And so together ... thus, we close the book.

[91]

OLD VERSES

I made a little funeral pyre,

And on it laid my youthful rhymes,

Those thoughts of innocent desire,

Dear foolish words of childhood times.

Poor things they were, misspelt and crude,

Yet void of guile or vain pretence,

They seemed like children thin and nude,

And unashamed through innocence.

And so, the while I struck the light

That should consume their humble bier

I kissed them, and as funeral rite

I mingled with the flame a tear.

[92]

ON THE ROAD TO TENNALEY TOWN
Maryland, U.S.A.

Over the hills to Tennaley Town,

When the leaves are red, and the leaves are brown,

Under a limpid sky!

Oh! it's good to be young to-day,

Strong, and young, on this lonely way,

Happy my thoughts and I!

Far below where the mists are blue

Runs the river, and damp with dew

Glimmers the golden corn,

Crickets sing in the wayside grass,

Beetles drone, as I pause and pass

On thro' the Autumn morn.

"Winter's coming," the winds have said,

Shall I weep for a time that's dead?

Foolish to weep, not I!

Over the hills near Tennaley Town,

When the leaves are red, and the leaves are brown,

I'm here, alive, walking swiftly down,

Then what matters the by and bye!

[93]

A LITTLE DIRGE

What so dead as my love for you,

What so terribly dead!

Lay it low 'neath the grass and dew,

Bury it deep in an earthy bed,

Then put a tombstone over its head

With the words "And this love was true."

[94]

THE POET

I weave my verses of smiles and tears,

Gathered and shed for you,

I bind them up in the hopes of years,

Dear, will you read them through?

I write my ballads of joy and pain,

Cast at your heedless feet,

I set the words to a lost refrain,

Sing it but once, my Sweet!

I breathe my life into rhyme and song,

What shall I gain thereby?

The verse is poor, and the tune is wrong,

Kiss them and let them die.

[95]

A NIGHT IN ITALY

Time hangs suspended 'mid the perfumed dusk,

With limpid wings, o'er which the first pale star

Gleams like a tear, within the tender, far

Desirous eyes of love-lorn Destiny.

The earth is dumb, the scents of many flowers

Flow out from petalled lips upon her breast,

In one unending sigh of happy rest.

The halting pageant of the passing hours

Unfurls its misty pennants to the sea.

The Nightingale has swooned for ecstasy,

And hides away amid the vine-clad bowers

Upon the terrace; Oh! impassioned dusk!

Speechless with longing, throbbing with delight

To fling thy beauty in the arms of night,

Thy rare, dim beauty sweet with breath of musk,

Thou shalt not know thy joy nor him requite

With tender ardour, ere there comes to me

Adown thy paths from out eternity,

My soul's twin soul, mine embodied bliss,

Torn from the countless ages by a kiss.

[96]

HANDS AND LIPS

Give me your hands to hold,

For the night and the wind are cold,

And the year's growing sad and old,

So give me your hands to hold.

Give me your lips to press,

For the light of the moon grows less,

And the sky's full of dreariness,

So give me your lips to press.

Dear hands, dear lips, all mine!

Let the moon and her beams decline,

Let the night and the storm combine,

If your hands and your lips are mine.

[97]

WE TWO

What have we missed, we two—

You and I—I and you—

Of sorrow, and pain, and tears,

Of doubt, and of passionate fears,

Of madness, and badness, these years!

And what have we missed, we two!

But what have we missed, we two—

You and I—I and you—

Of rapture, and vast delight,

Of loving, and living, of right

To surrender, that love may requite,

How much have we missed, we two!

[98]

TO ——

The sun has set; Beloved see that star,

Wan with desire, pale in the afterglow,

Above the hill top hanging very low,

As though she stooped from her high regions far

To kiss this earth, because she loved it so!

While I, I feel the trembling touch of you,

Feel the dim magic of your eyes on me,

As though two stars had fallen in the sea,

And drowned themselves in his rejoicing blue,

Lighting his soul through all eternity!

[99]

NORTH AND SOUTH

Come with me, sweetheart, into Italy,

And press the burning goblet of the south

To those cold northern lips, until thy mouth

Relents beneath its draft of ecstasy.

Drink in the sun, made liquid in the breasts

Of purple grapes crushed lifeless for thy wine,

Until those over tranquil eyes of thine

Glow like twin lakes, on which the noontide rests.

Drink in the airs, those languid, vapoury sighs

Of Goddesses, whose souls live on in love,

Those amorous zephyrs, soft with plaint of dove

From flowery trees of Pagan Paradise:

Until thy brain grows hazy 'neath the fumes

Of pale camellias, passionately white,

Of scarlet roses dropping with delight

Their wanton petals in a shower of bloom.

[100]

Drink in the music of some ardent song,

Poured forth to die upon the wide, still lake,

Until the darkness seems to throb and break

In fiery stars whose pulses yearn and long.

And then drink in my love; the whole of me,

In one deep breath, one vast impassioned kiss,

That come what may, thou canst remember this:

That thou hast lived and loved in Italy.

[101]

ON THE HILL TOP

What is the end of all sweet things,

Of these dawns and twilights and golden springs?

Of the rose that climbs, and the scent that clings?

Of the breeze that sighs, and the thrush that sings?

Dust and ashes and death?

No, my dearest! for you and I

Here on the hill's summit under the sky

Have found a magic, time cannot deny

To make immortal what else must die,

The magic of Love's warm breath.

[102]

THE MOON

The moon has risen from her cloudy bed,

And soared serenely into cloudless blue,

White as a lily in a haze of dew,

Pale lady, to the Summer Darkness wed—

She leaves her nuptial couch, by breezes spread,

And seeks her virgin solitude anew;

While all the being of the Dark thrills through

With memories, the while her stately head

She lifts above him to the purer height,

Nor heeds the restless anguish of desire

With which he seeks to turn to living fire

The icy splendour of her luring light.

She drifts, and smiles into his ardent eyes,

With cold disdain, and smiling still denies.

[103]

SPECULATION

If at some future day we two should meet,

Stand face to face before the staring crowd,

And pull from Love's dead form the decent shroud

That time has wound about from head to feet—

I scarcely know what words would come to greet

Your presence, if they would be soft or loud,

Would your head be held high or humbly bowed,

And would the moment bitter be or sweet

To me, as you pushed back the long past years,

Would I rejoice, perhaps, at this new pain?

At least 'twould mean that I could live again,

And had not washed away my soul with tears.

I think there might be much that I could bless

In that deliverance out of nothingness.

[104]

THE MEETING

To meet almost as strangers, who have been

Such lovers in the past! no glad delight

To thrill our senses, till the wrong seems right,

For very joy—I wonder will your mien

Be happy? it seems years since I have seen

You smiling! I shall take you to the light,

And trace new lines upon your brow, and right

Above them may be some gray hairs, your clean

Strong profile, will it look the very same?

Are your hands wrinkled? Oh! my perfect hands!

Be not less lovely now that passion stands

Aloof, and dare not kiss you into flame—

I could not bear it! Time can never blight

Such marvels, so divinely slim and white.

[105]

TO SOME ONE!

Why kinder to the breeze than unto me?

For oft you let him play within your hair,

Blow its soft curls about, and find it fair,

The while he whispers low and tenderly

Into your ear; and yet how cold is he!

And loves you not, but only frolics there;

Sometimes I wish I might be turned to air,

And thus be rid of my humanity,

That finds no favour in your haughty eyes.

Were I a breeze you'd fling your windows wide,

And give me welcome, as I swept aside

The curtain, kissing all pride now denies,

Your lips, your cheeks, your eyes, your throat, your breast,

Until with kissing spent I sank to rest.

[106]

OUT AT SEA

The sea was witness of the words you said:

She hushed her every tide that she might hear

Your whispered love, and while you bent so near

My bosom, laying down your weary head

To rest thereon—the corals in their bed

Stirred with emotion, shaken as with fear,

And foam grew paler, passionately drear

As some wan smile, upon a face that's dead.

I took your hand in mine, your living hand!

And pressed it closer, closer in mine own.

A nameless terror shocked me while I scanned

Your ardent face; there rose a stifled moan

To part my lips; I saw the future stand

Before me, and behold! I was alone.

[107]

FAITH

Ah! Faith, I'd barter all I own to know

But one brief moment of your magic charm,

Whereby my spirit freed from earthly woe,

Might spread its wings towards immortal calm.

Is there no wisdom but it steals our peace?

No knowledge but it leads us to unrest?

My mind is weary, and would seek release

From thoughts terrestrial; those indeed are blessed

Upon whose hearts all simple holy things

Fall without question, as a drop of dew

Lights on a rose, and, though she gently swings,

Falls not to earth! ah! rose, if I were you,

I would thrice bless your dumbness, since thereby

Your fragrant lips may never question why.

[108]

THE SCAR

Upon my life I bear one precious scar:

Each night I kiss it, till anew it bleeds,

And tell each drop of blood, as hallowed beads

Are told by those dear few who faithful are.

To me it seems to beautify, not mar,

My inner self, for from that deep wound leads

A path to gained respect, my secret needs

Quenched by the bleeding of that fountain are.

The fiery contest when that wound was won,

Still burns within my brain, and robs of life,

And terror, every lesser hurt that's done

To heart or spirit; let all harm run rife.

I shall not fear again to look upon

The gleaming edges of Fate's sharpest knife.

[109]

COMPARISON

Without what desolation! mist and rain,

And weeping trees, and roses that decay

While still in blossom, till the autumn day

Lies low, and speechless, and benumbed with pain.

An early twilight hides the gentle plain

With mournful dusk, while meadows melt away

Like echoes of those tunes we used to play,

Ere time had turned them to a lost refrain.

But leave the window, turn towards the room,

So soft with firelight on the time-worn beams

A friendly spirit lurks within the gloom

Of dim oak corners, while a host of gleams

Await your fingers on our fancy's loom,

To weave them into happy fireside dreams.

[110]

AN INTERLUDE

I

Crush these voluptuous grapes between your teeth,

Your small, strong teeth! and let their purple pain

Be offered in a sacrificial rain

Of sun-warmed essence; while I twine a wreath

Of all their leaves, and place it just beneath

Your high-combed curls, to rest upon the plain

Of your white temples: though the Nymphs disdain

To grace our modern banquet, they bequeath

A sylvan fancy to my wayward dream.

This glint of candles on the silver round

Is yellow moonlight, mirrored in lone stream,

These flowers are springing from the sensuous ground,

And we are Dryads, 'tis a fitting theme

For you to sing; come—thrill the night with sound.

II

The shaded lamps that make the room seem dim

Scarcely revealing pictures on the wall;

Yet one so placed to let a halo fall

Upon your hair; you smile! yes, it's a whim

A Poet's fancy with a moonlit rim

[111]

Perhaps—and yet a harmless wish withal.

Don't quarrel with it, just sit there, those tall

White lilies make a background for your slim

Young body. Let the blinds be up, and night

Gaze through the windows with her purple eyes,

Dropping some ardent star from out its height

For very eagerness of glad surprise

At so much beauty, till your song's delight

Shall waft it back into the listening skies!

III

Where shall I find a corner in this room

Almost in darkness? Ah! that deep recess

Of languid cushions, eager to caress

My weary limbs! from out its dreaming gloom

Made holy by the incense of perfume,

All unobserved and happy I'll confess

My senses to those roses, passionless,

And listening in their bowl of silver doom.

Sing, sing, sweet friend, but soft, though eagerly!

With tender pauses in between the notes

Filled up with little sighs, unconsciously—

These rose-dropped petals, they are fairy boats

Our souls may sail on lakes of melody

Adown whose ripples youth eternal floats.

[112]

IV

Oh! burning silence! when the very air

Is warm with memories of sounds we love!

You cease to sing, yet from below, above,

Around me, in me, of me, everywhere,

That Music's spirit, tremulously fair

Flutters and flutters, like a wounded dove,

And cannot fly beyond this earthly groove!

Midway it pauses, hanging throbbing there.

I will not speak, lest it should seem profane

In such a presence; idle words of praise

Ye are but mortal sounds, with no refrain

That can endure beyond our passing days,

And so be silent! silent with the pain

Of all deep feeling, that can find no phrase.

V

Kiss me good night, sweet minstrel, on the stairs!

I love your lips, they're neither pale nor red,

But like an after-glow, when day lies dead

Upon the mountains. Do they say soft prayers,

Those languid lips? to God, a God who cares,

And gathers such dear follies thread by thread

As each is woven in your mind, and shed

Like gold spun silk upon His field of tares?

You're silent! let it pass; who knows but you,

So strong in weakness, may compel God's ear

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To listen for the smallest drop of dew

That all our thunders would disdain to hear:

And so, Sweet, if you pray, repeat anew

To God, that while you sang I wept a tear!

VI

This morning while I light my cigarette

In this dim study with its endless view

Stretching away to hills whose eyes are blue

With secret thoughts, my thoughts are all regret,

Regret for broken interludes! and yet—

If it were otherwise, who knows but you

Might grow to pall, as things familiar do,

While now it seems worth while to not forget!

And so good-bye, my friend, drift out in smoke,

Vague, and intangible, a fleeting joy

That some stray match of fate in passing woke,

To burn awhile, like this small soothing toy

Between my lips: Time's galling iron yoke

Is not for us, we made and we'll destroy.

CHISWICK PRESS: CHARLES WHITTINGHAM AND CO.
TOOKS COURT, CHANCERY LANE, LONDON.

The following poems from "'Twixt Earth and Stars," by Marguerite Radclyffe-Hall, have been set to music:

By MR. HUBERT BATH

"A Song." Chappell and Co.
"Italian Spring." Boosey and Co.
"On the Lagoon." Boosey and Co.

By MR. EATHORPE MARTIN

"Shall I Complain?" Metzler and Co.

Transcriber's Notes

Minor punctuation and printer errors repaired.

*** END OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK 49321 ***

A SHEAF OF VERSES

CONTENTS

A SHEAF OF VERSES

KINSHIP

THE MOON'S MESSAGE

ON A BATTLE FIELD

TO ——

THE ALL-MOTHER'S AWAKENING

A SUMMER THOUGHT

MOTH TO THE FLAME

A TWILIGHT FANCY

THE TWO ANGELS

IN THE HARDT WALD

THE QUEST OF THE WHITE HEATHER Schwartz Wald

ONE NIGHT

A WELCOME

WHITE BUTTERFLIES Schwartz Wald

THOUGHTS

THE CLOUD AND THE MOUNTAIN

AN AUGUST NIGHT

SPRING HOPES SONG

MY CHOICE

IN COUPLES

HOUSE HUNTING

RE-INCARNATION

ODE TO SAPPHO

INCOMPATIBLE

CONFIDENCE

FOUND WANTING

IN DARKNESS

BROTHER FILIPPO

AN AUTUMN RIDE Malvern

BEFORE DAWN Malvern

MY CASTLE

MALVERN July 23rd, 1906

TO MY LITTLE COUSIN

TREPIDATION

AT MEISSEN June 29th

WINTER ON THE ZUYDER ZEE

ARDOUR

A COMPLAINT

THE LAYING OF GHOSTS

TO A BABY

O LADY MINE Song

BUTTERFLY Song

TO ——

A WINDY JUNE

HOLLYHOCKS

THE TRUTH

A MOUNTAIN PATH

A PEARL NECKLACE

TO ROSES

ON THE SEA-SHORE

MY VALLEY

TO ——

FINIS

OLD VERSES

ON THE ROAD TO TENNALEY TOWN Maryland, U.S.A.

A LITTLE DIRGE

THE POET

A NIGHT IN ITALY

HANDS AND LIPS

WE TWO

TO ——

NORTH AND SOUTH

ON THE HILL TOP

THE MOON

SPECULATION

THE MEETING

TO SOME ONE!

OUT AT SEA

FAITH

THE SCAR

COMPARISON

AN INTERLUDE

I

II

III

IV

V

THE QUEST OF THE WHITE HEATHER
Schwartz Wald

WHITE BUTTERFLIES
Schwartz Wald

SPRING HOPES
SONG

AN AUTUMN RIDE
Malvern

BEFORE DAWN
Malvern

MALVERN
July 23rd, 1906

AT MEISSEN
June 29th

O LADY MINE
Song

BUTTERFLY
Song

ON THE ROAD TO TENNALEY TOWN
Maryland, U.S.A.